I have been in a “Funk” – there I said it…I moped around a lot – thinking why us, worried, questioning life’s purpose (no answers yet), a constant dark cloud over my head (think Eyeore in Winnie the Pooh, if you don't have kids don’t even bother visualizing), I have gone about things on auto pilot since November…telling myself that I will get out of it and things will get better. I don’t think I am the kind of person given to depressions, terrible mood swings or tantrums – I keep my mind and self pre-occupied and busy and really sweep negative emotions literally under the carpet (not a very healthy thing to do).
This week I was mentally categorizing my personal and professional life and realized – on things that I “could” control or change – I wouldn’t do one thing different – I absolutely love my new job and the new connections that I have made, I love the level of diplomacy and tact it has taught me and I love the fact that I am truly stretching myself and learning something new. On my personal life – I have been able to achieve a work/life balance…spending time with my son who is fast growing up, K1 seems busier and more stressed than normal but I am assuming that will smoothen out in the next couple months, we have been focused on living simple and eating healthy. I traded down my car (a spiffy Lexus IS 300) for a wonderful Prius 2 years back …I shop more at the Farmer’s Market…if I didn’t have a brown thumb and a small backyard, I would try to grow some fruits in my backyard. Yet, it is the things that I can’t control that put me into the “funk”…however that is not my story to share. However, when I see a loved one’s positive approach to life and adversity…I realize that is real living. If you think you are a victim, you shall feel like a victim. I especially loved a recent article I had read by David Servan…very inspirational. If you want to read it is available here.
I very loftily did not set any New Year resolutions for myself this year. Yet as the year progresses I have set a mental checklist for myself that I need to well what else…check off!
- Get Organized - Declutter, Declutter, Declutter ( sell off K2’s old stuff that I am clinging on to, give away things at the Salvation Army or just trash)
- Go to Yoga at least 4 times a week – this one is critical
- Eat Healthy - I think I am there with this one. But think I am too hard on K1 and K2 in terms of diet and need to loosen the belt a little bit and let a little bit of meat (chicken, fish) into the mix. Not always worry about nutritional value or antioxidant value – just go with the beat…If I want to have a Nestle Triple Chocolate Drumstick – then I will go ahead and have one….of course I won’t have it every day…but that one drumstick will settle the noisy cravings for a while.
- Live Simple – no fancy cars or expensive gym memberships or branded accessories…I came into this country with two suitcases and guess what! I was super happy ( I am quoting my friend P here)…I would much rather focus on the non-material things in life for now (in the background of course we will pay up our mortgage debt, squirrel away some savings for retirement, put some money away for a college fund for K2)
- Focus on the now vs. worry about the future – I want to take a long hike, a trip to the zoo, I want to learn how to swim like a fish, I want to watch whales, I want to go on a wild life safari, I want to write a book, I want to learn how to bake scrumptious vegan cup cakes, I want to take a trip to India and go down to Goa with the family (K1,K2, my parents, K1’s Parents and our siblings)…and I am going to figure out how to get all these done this year without letting work deadlines and my own virtuous other self talk me into not doing the “fun stuff”.
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